my story, my life

my story, my life

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:/ hmm

It's always on my mind because I'm always texting him. He loves me, do I love him? What makes me special?

omg

am i really that sh*ty that people don't coment? woh just straight up tell me i'm a loser then!  omg i'm going back to my clubpenguin blog, at lest people comment there!

I have to let go of one thing to move on. I try to move on without letting go. I found something, I'm sure. Can I still hold on, but yet move forward?

Does it hold me back? How do I know? Is it true? Is it false? Is it a lie? How do I know? Can I be sure?

Is it what I hoped? Is it what I want? Is it what I dream? No it's not, it can't be, I'm not.

me

http://www.glogster.com/jackiesparrow/me/g-6lrnucvej3f5jg2hu6hb9a0

my many faces and love

http://www.glogster.com/jackiesparrow/my-many-faces/g-6lro30ts425b15c7fg7usa0
http://www.glogster.com/jackiesparrow/love/g-6lrq33h4o9nmg5592rftca0?s=nameglog

12?

My mom thinks I'm a slut

Other people's love is my pain (each paragraph is a new edit)

why do I let it hurt me? Why? why, can't I just live with it? why must I put my self down? why do I enjoy this pain? why do i inflict this pain on me? will someone help me rid my self of it? or will i just push them away? push them to far, and they never come back?

One day I will push to hard, to far. People alread don't care, are alreday distant. I live alone, but yet not. I'm in my own world, sad, mad, hurt. In ur world I'm happy looking. Its all an act. When I write a story, I want it to be happy, bc I am not. I want love and happiness but I don't have it. I push I t away. That's why I write that I have it, its a mask, of things I want but I'm to concided to know I have them I just pushed it away.

I had to feel something, but everytime I say I'm not good enough, it won't happen... the bliss and the pain it brings makes me thing, makes me hope, make me wonder.... it makes me hurt myself, kno the truth... which is and always was... but I didn't always know it...

Love tweet

right now i sit confused. does he still like me? do i like him? do i like his twin? will i be able to tell them apart? is this love? IMH :/ -- agirlnamedTYIPT (@agirlnamedTYIPT)

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: "Love is powerful, it can bring life, it can take life. Love can heal, love can hurt. Love is many things, in many ways..."" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144252237181489152

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: "...Love is you, to me. But then again, so is hate."" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144252311781384192

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: What happened to my good morning texts? I miss those :-)" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144377088005242880

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #ItMakesMeHappyWhen i see you #thingsthatmakemesmile are when you let me barrow you jacket :D" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144614577915699201

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #DontEvenAsk if i love them, because i really dont think i do" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144602469358514177

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: There are three guys that make any dull day bright, gray day yellow, and any frown a smile" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144558091013328896

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: i love his head on my lap" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144546519029268480

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: he read my tweets and asked if im falling for him i said no bc im a #neverfind cursed to find love and have it taken and never find it again" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144546946667917313

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: 2 guys i cant help bt flirt w/3 guys i wonder if i luv this bliss i feel the happiness tht overwhelms me and all sadness bt i'm a #neverfind" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144546228821176320

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: When I know I will see him, I smile... and my heart beats faster :-)" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144501285964611585

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #thingsthatmakemesmile when I was soaked and you gave me your jacket even when I said no" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144484780384321536

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: oooooohhhhhhhhh and he kissed me :DDDDD *sigh* why must we have two differnt lunches? #iknow! i shall skip 4th.. #everybody does it!" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144257912653627393

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: ahhh i know this is love. how? because in books, when i feel their love, this is how i feel. :D only thing is do i love him and he me?" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144257559304478720

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: your texts make me feel all warm and ... fluffy? awwww idc! i feel gitty when i read your texts... idc how old i always smile... :D" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144256536406007809

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: "Love is powerful, it can bring life, it can take life. Love can heal, love can hurt. Love is many things, in many ways..."" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144252237181489152

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #letsbringback true love" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144246417618251778

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: there are people you flirt with, even if it's just a joke. maybe they are your #1love4mealway ... or maybe not" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144203470281510912

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: He missed me! He kissed me!" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/144168288174342144

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #2BeHonest I miss you" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/143899742429130752

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #2BeHonest I want to send all my 'love' tweets to him!" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/143899689295679488

Not bc I love then either...bt its part of it

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #2BeHonest I hang with guys for company, not to show off" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/143897659554533376

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: Am I going to be getting kisses every day? I kinda like this :-)" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141856558324776960

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: I'm a never find... I don't have much hope http://t.co/UKOw9JNq" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141836350826610690

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #MomentsICanNeverForget the times I spent with you" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141727620453773312

Ilove the guy tht tried

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #MomentsICanNeverForget when u held me back... or tried" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141727542573924353

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: Many people make me happy, but with them two, it's like nothing else matters, nothing else exists, #bliss" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141723752068157442

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: #iwanttohug this guy, and never let go" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141543125096202240

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: I love josh, he has always been there, even when I pushed him away, he made me stronger" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141479985528573952

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: i know im a never find, so why bother? i hold the bliss in a jar, but only 3 people give it life... its just a faint gleam without them." --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141344155765964800

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: what is love? how do i know? all i know is this bliss, should i trust it, or let it fly free like the wind?" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/141343867306905600

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: “Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/110060710335217664

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: only one person can make me happy now, thanks @aaronhasNOswag :D" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/113329119365840896

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: i miss him... all 3 of them, but oh well" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/113327394076626945

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: You see? Knew it! Number 3, 1 was better, 2 killed me, 3 is killing me. but nicely,if it makes sence. I knew it though, and no one listens!" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/113321815677476864

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: I feel more broken and invisible then I have ever felt before.... I don't like it! I want it to go away, I feel like humpty dumpty..." --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/113321816772190210

Me...my quote

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a
Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: Quote of day: "I'm friendless because I'm strong, I hide because I'm smart, i'm alone scared" --Anom." --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/110121831071100928

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: "People assume you are shutting them out sometimes it's a test to see how much you care."" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/110061228545679360

tuesday cole (@musicrazy13) has shared a Tweet with you: "musicrazy13: "I've built a wall around my heart not to block anyone out, but to see who cares about me enough to climb over it."" --http://twitter.com/musicrazy13/status/110060740425170944

my ABC's

A- Available: yes
B- Birthday: Dec. 31
C- Crushing On: Josh
D- Drink you last had: water with lime
E- Easiest person to talk too: Tori or Nina :D
F- Favorite song: ... every little thing acoustic (song I'm listening to)
G- Grossest memory: ... ummm.... umm watching fuse TV at a resturant yesterday and watching guys eat chicks in eggs... :P
H- Hometown: Miami
I- In love with: Josh
J- Jealous of: .... no one?
K- Killed someone: no, just my self... (black ops)
L- Longest friendship: Nina
M- Middle Name: Grace
N- Number of siblings: 2
O- One wish: SNOW! IN MIAMI
P- Person who called you last: ummm.... Bryant  maybe... idr
Q- Question you're always asked: Why don't I fit in?
R- Reason to smile: JOSH!!!
S- Song you last sang: ummm a hawk nelson song or eleventyseven song....
T- Time you woke up:5:45
U- Underwear color: pink
V- Violent moment you had:... ummm idr... OHHH I KNO!!! .. i forgot... O:)
W- Worst habit: bitting nails, talking to self? umm SHUTTING MYSELF OUT!
X- # of x-rays you had: none O.o
Y- Yourfave color: black
Z- Zodiac Sing :capricorn

11?

I've...
Never been kissed
Had a boyfriend
Idk...
How love feels
How to give love
How to execpt someones love
So I Push people away Wish for them to come back but don't do it all the time
If u ask me u will always get this and the two guys that give me bliss that I despertately wish I could love them
I am a never find, I will never find love... (miki falls)

my love tweets

i want him to text me first... but im not going to tell him that... there are 3 him(s) that make me happy out of no where, ily guys! what is love? how do i know? all i know is this bliss, should i trust it, or let it fly free like the wind? i know im a never find, so why bother? i hold the bliss in a jar, but only 3 people give it life... its just a faint gleam without them. 

question of the day

would you rather a rumor go around the school that you did a cop? {OR} were caught with weed? (both unrelated and false)

confesstion, not facts

im glad that i have friends there for me! thanks, i know i put you though a lot, thanks for being here... there for me :D

" Idk if u think im real or fake but im as real as i can b."
there are only 3 guys that can make me smile... and usely when im not subpost to text... but i love ya guys for it:D thanks!! :D

10

I am weird... I like tattoos, feathers, eyes, and umm... books!!!!!!

9

I will never know what love feels like, only bliss, or happiness..I will never fit in

8

I cuss when I'm upset
I like 4 guys and one of them I made up whn I was 12, 2 are my ageish, and one in younger......
I only have 3 friends...that are real
I wonder school and hang out with ppl I know
The 3 real guys are not my 3 real friends.. sad but tru
I'm happier on my period... not as bitchy I guess... sorry onl word I can think of
Trying to stop cussing

7

#dirtylittlesecret I am not who everyone thinks I am, If I was I would be at least 10 different people
yesterday was a REALLY bad day
sometimes i cuss, but mainly i am the girl from dear john... they go through my head day and night

6

I grew up with guys
Girls annoy me
Girls rubbed off on me in the last 3 years
I hate girls
I'm bored
I'm listening to eleventyseven
I'm .... subpost to be doing hw
Guys that stright out love me are just as annoying as girls
I will dress as a who knows what and go to the mall

5

i most likely broke 2 fingers... if you ask my mom

i got back my hat
I AM STILL NOT A DUDE IM A CHICK
i like my school's writer's cafe club every tuesday :D
i will miss it durring winter break

4

I love my yankees hat... yes... the one that this guy took.... and called me son... I'm pretty sure I'm a girl though... I get my hat back after school...do I look like a dude?
Just add the hat the way guys wear them

3

I like looking at the. Stars on the way to the bus stop

2

I love to steal hats from guys. I hate hair bows... not a lot I guess bc I am wearing one... but it won't last...

I have to work on a project about taxes.... I've had 5 days now

I love churros, naruto, japan, I can kinda sign, speek spanish, speek japanese :-)

I bite my nails, and paint them just 2 rip it off a minute later

1

i love to act, read and write. be carefull what you ask of me, you might get it... or get hurt :-)

I love eleventyseven, I'm listening to myspace.

Hmmm jonas brothers are cool, I LOVE disney! ... comment if u want to learn more...

Ohh I am bueatiful, can't spell, know that people care and have dead low self/God confidance.... I AM A CHRISTAN! I do think being gay is wrong, but u can't choose, and gays should have rights. My oppion! Have a problem? Comment!

I speek in movie quotes, I'm mad, obsessed with sharpie and potc.... I would die w/o dc comics and x-men and gamestop and video games. I speek sarcasim, english, ghetto, and uneducated... I can sign, cannot sing, u will know its me if u saw me... I act out... a lot... I want to be an author...

the diretor of phil ot the future loved me.. I made the list, never got the call back... I miss john robert powers

I am easly confused

Edit: I don't think being gay is wrong... I guess its a sin....but ur ppl too, u should have rights